My Almost Failed Parenting

I could have been a failed dog parent. When I first decided that I wanted to get a dog, I knew I wanted a beagle, despite their supposed loudness and obstinancy. Something about those floppy ears and their spirit just captured me. 

I checked Petfinder for weeks and visited shelters a few times. Eventually, I saw a beagle that I thought would be perfect. I went to the shelter several times but was unable to pull the trigger. Finally, I got up one day and decided that was the day to get him. Unfortunately, I arrived 10 minutes too late. Another family was already considering him. I hung around for hours, just devastated that I couldn’t have that one dog. Eventually I asked to see another dog, a 1-year old black lab mix named Fernando. He instantly had me. I took him home that night. 

It took only a few days for me to realize I’d made a mistake. Fernando was a beautiful, wonderful dog but he was still very much a puppy and I didn’t have the energy for him. I’m single and work during the day so I wasn’t there to tend to him. Heartbroken at the realization, I called the shelter and asked to return him. Fortunately for both of us, they took him back.

Fernando

He just wasn’t the right fit. Money was never an issue for him; in just that one week, I spent over $300 on his supplies – adoption fee, food, crate, treats, toys. I even took him to the vet within 3 days of adoption. But he just wasn’t the right fit. When I took him back, I donated all his stuff and sponsored his next adoption.

For the couple weeks after he was gone, my house and my life felt empty. I checked Petfinder everyday, staring at his newly restored profile, wondering if I’d made the right decision. Eventually, his profile disappeared and I called the shelther to confirm that he’d been adopted again.

I tell this story in order to remind us that not every dog who is returned was a bad one and not every owner who returns a dog is a bad person. I made a sad, sad mistake. I still hope and pray that he has a good life and that someone somewhere is giving him everything he deserves, everything that I couldn’t give him.

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